I don’t know about you, but over the past week my Instagram has been floooded with excited posts about coming out of lockdown – and rightly so, there is finally a light at the end of this coronavirus tunnel and we’re going to be able to see our friends and do things! Despite this, I can’t help but feel a little anxious.
Change is such a weird thing, at the beginning of lockdown I was resistant to go into lockdown and then now coming out of it I’m feeling the exact same as I did 12 months ago! However, feeling anxious about going into lockdown felt normal, but being anxious about coming out of lockdown seems like it is completely wrong, and I feel like I need to be excited because everyone else is (by the looks of Instagram anyway). I can’t help but think am I the only one that is feeling like this, or are other people feeling anxious too?
I’m in a v privileged position to be able to say that it’s not necessarily catching the virus I’m anxious about, but rather the returning to ‘normal’ bit. I’ve become so comfortable in this enclosed/sheltered life that this now really is the ‘new normal’ for me and I don’t know how I feel about coming out of it! I’ve built way better habits throughout the past year, focused on my fitness, my sleep, learning more and drinking less and the thought of going back to how everything was before scares me a bit because I can honestly say that over the past couple of months my mental health has been better than ever. So now I suppose it’s just a matter of finding balance between these two different ways of life.
Another thing I’m not overly excited for when we come out of lockdown is how much everyone is going to flaunt what they’re up to on social media . Pre-lockdown in 2020 I was in such a bad headspace, I felt so so lonely (even though I wasn’t) and I can only put this down to social media and I’m really worried I’ll end up back there! Looking at Instagram always seemed to be busy and out with their friends while I was sat at home watching films at home with my mum and dad, and I couldn’t help but feel super lonely. Why do we always put ourselves through the pain of comparing our lives to everyone’s highlight reel?! With everyone coming out of lockdown social media is going to become a very showy offy place yet again, with people feeling a subconscious pressure to constantly be doing things and proving that outside of lockdown they have a great life. Peoples social lives are going to be publicised more than ever, and if you’re having a weekend where you’re feeling a bit down I feel like social media is going to amplify that. So, my advice to my future self and anyone else that is worried about this is, PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN.
All this being said, I’m sure everything will be absolutely fine, and we’ll all slip back into life as we know it in next to no time, but this is just where my head is at at the moment. I’m sure so many people are feeling a similar way, but no one seems to be talking about it. So if you’re reading this and you’ve been feeling the same i hope it brings you some comfort to know youre not alone.
How are you feeling about coming out of lockdown? What do you think the new normal is going to look like?
Thanks for reading, Chloe x